365 days

A year. A whole entire year.
For starters, and the one truth that rings clear on even the hardest days, is that my God is faithful, and that through it all, He hasn't left me alone. Ever. Not for one single second, not for any given step.

It's amazing how much a person can change in a year. Granted, this year has been one of the toughest years i can remember, but the outcome, where I stand at this point, is breathtaking. And my very favorite part is that I can't take a single ounce of it and claim it for my own. Every stitch, every scab, every time a wound has been torn open again, and every time it's grown shut has been a direct effect of the hand of God. And i wouldn't have it any other way.

I've been single for a year as of Wednesday, and it's probably one of the greatest things that's ever happened to me. Not in the "i don't need anybody, he was no good anyway" mentality, but i can very readily say that it has completely shaped my faith. No, it wasn't comfortable nor would I wish some of what I went through on my very worst enemy. But it has almost entirely made me who I am in Christ today.

I should also mention that I'm still healing. And still growing. There are things that I still battle with, and am constantly fighting; but my battle has already been won by the One who knows me best and conquered the depths of Hell and despair to capture my heart. Relationships frustrate me, especially those with the opposite gender, but so very slowly I'm learning to leave them at the foot of the cross to the One who holds my future anyway. And as I learn to lay them down, things begin to look a lot less like scars and more like character.

So for now, I will continue to dance. I will continue to follow my Leader down this path that sometimes has the most glorious scenery, and sometimes one that I can't see where my foot is going to be in the very next step. I'll put my heart out there, and I'll probably get it handed back to me a couple times again before it's all said and done. But it will be Held all the while, and there is absolutely nothing that can shake that. For I will not be moved.